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it has been a few days after trumps inaguration. i didn't watch it. i've been panicked trying to figure out what ways i can protect myself digitially and irl.

i've deleted my meta accounts, been trying to get a grasp of more complex computer programs and security concepts, and checking in with what local resources, orgs, and communities i have that i can connect with as much as possible. i try but i don't know that much about complete politicial theory. i do really believe in fascist uprising that your local community is your best bet.

i've been really upset and i dont really get whats going on. and i feel like my blog posts now have the added undertone of maybe this is me putting out some of my thought into the void before i die.

i had a falling out with a friend i love a lot. i'm sure there's stuff i could have done better. i just feel a lot lately like
people dont value me like i value them and want to value people in my life.
my therapist says i'm intense which isnt exactly a bad thing but its not what everyones thing.

i've been trying to focus on getting mp3 files of my favorite music, paint, make zines, and collage. i've been smoking too much lately.